stupid kenny…. and christmas…
Sunday, December 24th, 2006i create dis title… means dat i wana write how stupid i m in dis blog… dis few days… i noe a new fren… she say she wana study UTAR next year on da first sem n ask me ask sumthing bout UTAR 4 her… duno y… i will go ask 4 her n run here run there 4 her… n den wana take da intake form n postlaju 2 her pula… becoz of her i even giv up on my meal n run 4 her… cal frens n office everyday 2 check out 4 her.. n call her everyday… her fon is 016 wo.. walau… damn expensive… i duno y i would do so much 4 her… so weird feelings.. den she say she wana come kl.. i feel very happy cz i can see her liao…
on dat day, i hav football match… i was planning dat after da match i will go take her 2 UTAR.. den she tel me hav a guy accompany her…… suddenly i feel so sad n wana cry… she say da guy mayb noe da way n ask me no need 2 wait 4 her… after da match, i go eat n chat wit my frens near da field cz is near UTAR oso… as i wana wait 4 her… after i wait 4 2 hours time… she say she arrived liao n say wana go back jb liao… den i ask her whether wana go UTAR anot as i m stil waiting 4 her there… she say mayb next time as she hav other things 2 do… i smile off n end da call… at nite… she msn tel me dat she stil at kl n sleep at dat guy de hse… i suddenly feel so funny bout myself…
after dat day… is christmas day… my hse hav BBQ… quite nice n happy… cz long long time no BBQ liao… den she suddenly miss call me…. i quickily run 2 upstairs n cal her back… she say she accidentally press da button n say she stil at da guy’s hse… again… i smile off n end da call… continue my BBQ wit a terrible mood…
2day… i wake up quite late… i was stil thinking of wat happen 2 myself dis few days…? m i in love wit her…?? bt we juz noe each other less den 1 week… m i doing so much 4 a normal fren?? probably not giving up my own meal n BBQ… den wat is dis stupid feelings surrounding me n make me so suffer dis few days…?? arrrggh!!!! i wana shout it out loud loud!!!! i realy like 2 make myself into trouble every time….. i decided 2 giv up… giv up on relationship life… at least 4 now… so much pressure surrounding me… haiz… single is better or having a relationship is good?? dis stupid question hav been in my mind since few weeks ago… i oso duno da answer… now.. i hope i wont think of her again… i stil need 2 study… like wat my fren wai ming tel me… aiyo, study first la.. love is troublesome… kaka… sounds true now… bt sumtimes realy lonely….
back 2 christmas… i din go anywhere celebrate lo… juz at home BBQ n on9… kinda boring… bt at least i stil hav a fren jasmine accompany me celebrating christmas on msn… haha… dis is wat will happen when two single n lonely ppl on9 on christmas day~~ lastly… merry christmas 2 all my frens on frenster~~~!!!
